she has changed
she is so fierce now
its like whenever i try
i will be hurt.
she cant recognize me anymore thats what hurts the most.
i dont know what hurts more
when you know she dont know you anymore
or that now that she has forgotten almost everything what is
her last memory with you in her mind & heart?
This world is cruel
they all say its a matter of how you see it & i agree
but behind everything this world is just cruel.
or maybe its just where im at right now.
bounded by the amount of stress
and the never evitable incidents
of plain life.
No matter how much i try
its hard to block out your feelings
or unsee and unheard
but she will still be a grandma i hold close to my heart.
Balance is like the epitome of it. You cant have too much fight neither could you have a plain pathway. You need a bit of rugged pathway here & there.
I always smile to myself like a teenage girl that has fallen in love hard the first time whenever you hugged me close to you and kiss me on the forehead.Can i ever picture myself without you?
ive always picture love as a beautiful thing being able to do simple things everything under the sun talk about almost everything.These days i feel blissful & happy at the thought of having you by my side. My heart crush and fall though when i see that. I tried to coax myself telling myself that you are different. Youre close to everybody the harder i try the harder i fail. sad to say its a human nature the harder you try the harder it hits you. another sad fact, in human nature its hard to ignore a feeling.
theres many commitments alongside you that youre holding on too. the commitments that you hold on to they need you & you need them.
but my dear if only you know i need you as badly as how they need you.
I need you.