okay so here it goes i wanted to write this post in malay but i couldnot capture the right words. right now im at the peak of my life in happiness im contented and grateful for everything and everyone that i have right now.
i realise im a person in life where im a middle person friend most frequently like my friend could talk about the other one but yet i would still feel neutral for both sides.
Because no matter what i go through i know that people are worried that i will be taken advantage of. Cause of my belief in life that is everyone has their bad side and good side no matter how bad someone is ,theres always a good side. Im so pure in this thinking that i have been scolded alot of times to wake up to reality which is that belief of mine simply dont exist. however my instinct is still strong and you know what they say naluri seseorang wanita 90 peratusnya selalu benar.
currently my two close friends in poly are so afraid for me because im too easily taken advantage and i dont stand for myself at times.
yeah i really need that reality lesson. sigh.
but cmon havent you ever felt that the world was actually a perfect painted place?why must it change so much ?
but still im very grateful for every friendship that are still with me till now. though my heart still feels abit hollow now and then due to some missing persons in my life im thankful i have my mum and my family lastly my one and only love to back me up by my side. yes min. the one that has been my strength though i have no idea why he still come and search for me no matter how many times i have hurt him. He still loves me and im really touched by that fact every single day. I still have times in my life where i just stand there and think and wonder how could a guy so handsome with such great personality be attracted to someone like me . its still hard to believe. haha
hes gonna start scolding me if he saw this but thats what i love so much about him all those little flaws and imperfections all those small little things he does . i fall in love with him every single day , alhamdulillah ya ALLAH kalau inilah cinta sejati hanya kamu sahaja lah yang tahu.
"hold me close to you ,i dont want any other i want you."