Unexplainable.Thoughts.♥

I want to be able to paint you with a beautiful landscape.

           i think i saw you there.the first time that your eyes ever lay on me. the sun did not glisten in the background bathing you in warm sunlight in fact it was all blue. The sky was sky blue. I still remembered how shocked i am that you know me. That set of butterflies in my stomach ,the thoughts tumbling through my mind in a wild set of gymnastic moves i never knew i had. 


no matter how much you try

she has changed 

for sure,definetely 

she is  so fierce  now

its like whenever i try 

i will be hurt.

she cant recognize me anymore thats what hurts the most.

i dont know what hurts more

when you know she dont know you anymore

or that now that she has forgotten almost everything what is 

her last memory with you in her mind & heart?

This world is cruel 

they all say its a matter of how you see it & i agree

but behind everything this world is just cruel.

or maybe its just where im at right now.

bounded by the amount of stress 

and the never evitable incidents 

of plain life.

No matter how much i try 

its hard to block out your feelings 

or unsee and unheard 

but she will still be a grandma i hold close to my heart.

                   //love 

Balance is like the epitome of it. You cant have too much fight neither could you have a plain pathway. You need a bit of rugged pathway here & there.

I always smile to myself like a teenage girl that has fallen in love hard the first time whenever you hugged me close to you and kiss me on the forehead.Can i ever picture myself without you?

never.

ive always picture love as a beautiful thing being able to do simple things everything under the sun talk about almost everything.These days i feel blissful & happy at the thought of having you by my side. My heart crush and fall though when i see that. I tried to coax myself telling myself that you are different. Youre close to everybody the harder i try the harder i fail. sad to say its a human nature the harder you try the harder it hits you. another sad fact, in human nature its hard to ignore a feeling.

theres many commitments alongside you that youre holding on too. the commitments that you hold on to they need you & you need them.

but my dear if only you know i need you as badly as how they need you.

I need you.


Each time i see myself in reflecting against the reflection in the mirror.
The person that is staring back at me is someone whos full of flaws. On her face and in her personality. Those dark circles ,those eyebags,those pimples.they start to haunt me everyday.at times i almost give all my energy to them from thinking of it.

My appearance is maybe deteorating and i feel you deserve so much better.
Then i remembered and i thought to myself what if the flaws thats shown in each person actually represents the number of hardships someone has to go through all the hardship shithell crap life ask the person to go through? 
It amaze me how everything in life is so pressurizing so depressionning but so amazing and sweet. 

Im hurt im broken but what does it matter cause in the end. Changes will happen.life is just that way isnt it? One day youre so cold and the next well. View Larger

Each time i see myself in reflecting against the reflection in the mirror.
The person that is staring back at me is someone whos full of flaws. On her face and in her personality. Those dark circles ,those eyebags,those pimples.they start to haunt me everyday.at times i almost give all my energy to them from thinking of it.

My appearance is maybe deteorating and i feel you deserve so much better.
Then i remembered and i thought to myself what if the flaws thats shown in each person actually represents the number of hardships someone has to go through all the hardship shithell crap life ask the person to go through?
It amaze me how everything in life is so pressurizing so depressionning but so amazing and sweet.

Im hurt im broken but what does it matter cause in the end. Changes will happen.life is just that way isnt it? One day youre so cold and the next well.